Today, is #BellLetsTalk day here in Canada and though my blog is still ‘under construction’, I feel it all too fitting to share it with the world today.
I am the face of mental illness. I have 4 mental health illnesses that impede on how I live my life daily and slap some massive grief on top of that and we have, me. I may struggle, however, I do everything possible to find the light in the dark, the beauty within pain, the afterglow of my life after loss and mental health diagnosis’. And laughter, well, it’s just one of the best medicines out there.
I work diligently to cope and understand. I also work hard to make my story heard. If my story can help just one, just one person, reach out, talk , live their truth, than I have succeeded.
The stigmas that come with mental illness have consequences beyond what some of us could ever imagine. The consequences of living in shame or fear that stigmas around mental health can cause, they are fatal and not just physically. Stigma, it can take our heart, but, also our souls. To some of the darkest places. In the depths of darkness, I have found corners of darkness within myself I never knew existed. They lead to suicide ideation, isolation from any type of support, professional or personal and the list goes on and on and on.
Speaking my truth to not only the world, but also, to myself, it helped save me. It also allows me to live my truth, unapologetically, every single day. I still struggle in the stigmas that have held me back in the past few years, but I have a ‘0 fucks given’ attitude towards the shamers or blamers. I know my truths and I don’t have to justify them to anyone!
I was 38 years old when my truths fell. Time lost is a lesson learned, they say. It just makes me that much more passionate about living life at 40 and how I want to move forward in peer work with others who suffer just as I have and continue to learn, heal and grow within my mental health.
If you suffer, reach out! I assure you, I am only here today because of my strength and courage to do just that and you can do it to!!!
My name is Lindsay Beal and I am the face of mental health.